Reality or Illusion? 

There are some times when you question yourself. You question your existence. Why can't I stay like this forever? Just a child with no worries. 

Why do I have to live for so long? Even tho in the end everything feels so short. Time runs like the sand grains leaving your hand. 

What is there that I don't understand? Or the problem is in understanding everything?

Why there are some moments where you feel that you've lived this before? Déjà vu I wonder? Why you connect to someone that you've just met as if you know them for so long? Were your soul connected to them before even the world existed? 

Why does it feel like you've witnessed something so unknown yet powerful in the eyes of a stranger? 

Why your heart and mind never let go of some memories? 

Why can't I escape my mind and myself? 

Why do you find the best people only to let go? 

Why can't you just stay alone in your life when you've to leave alone in the end? 

What is there that I don't understand? I repeat. 

Myself or this universe?